Days 131 -140

The last 9 days have been great.  Kennedy has been going to Art in the Park on Tuesdays with Sofia.  Yesterday Kennedy went swimming for the first time since being diagnosed and did great.  Today she went to clinic and the doctor is very happy with her progress.  Molly came with us too which was nice company for K.  Outside of some occasional nausea, Kennedy seems like a normal 5 year old.  Her hair is slowly coming back which is good but not  that important.

I haven’t been blogging because I’m too tired and there is not much to say.  Just trying to keep with the hustle of everyday life and a sick kid is VERY TIRING!!!  On top of it, there hasn’t been much to report since things have been status quo (which is good!).

This weekend we have a wedding and will hopefully make it on the boat to get K out for some air.   Part of me is worried things seem too normal considering what is going on with her but I guess this is our new normal.

Blog from K:

We went to clinic today.  We took a picture with Dr. Manera.  My friend Molly watched me and played with me.  I was brave when the needle came in.

I went swimming in an inside pool and I jumped off the diving board.  We were with daddy on father’s day and throwed the bean bags and we went on the slide and we went on the swings and we went in the sprinkler.   

K and Sofia after Art in the Park

K Swimming

Kennedy and Dr. Manera

Days 125-130

We just celebrated the completion of our 5^th admit, only one more to go.  Dad took her to clinic on Thursday where she had her spinal infusion in of methotrexate in clinic and was admitted to the 4^th floor by 1pm.  Her methotrexate drip was started before 5pm so they clocked record time – way to go Loyola peds!!!  By the time I got to the hospital at 6, K had not napped so she was fast asleep by 9 with potty breaks every 2 hours.  She was a bit crabby from the poking and prodding so we didn’t do much with our 3 hours.

Friday we played in the playroom for a bit.  Maddox and Grandpa came to visit for a few hours which made time fly.  We also saw Nina (the 11 year old recently diagnosed) who was also in for chemo.  I am always amazed at how resilient children are.  Kennedy, Ella, Tyler, Nina, Camilla, Nick – all these kids with cancer that I know have the best attitudes and are so strong.  It is easy to forget they are or have been seriously ill.

Dad came on Friday night to swap places with me.  I didn’t leave the hospital until nearly 9 because Kennedy started crying each time I tried to leave.  I came very close to spending the night again but there just isn’t room for all of us so I made the trek home.  Maddox slept at Grandmas and I met them both at Maddox’s baseball game on Saturday morning. Afterwards, Maddox and mom went back to the hospital where we helped pack and spring K from the big house.  The rest of the weekend was busy, we went to Christina’s wedding on Saturday and even made it to the boat on Sunday.  Dad really wanted to keep K at home but she insisted on boating so away we went; lathered with sunscreen and the boat top up, we hit the river for a short cruise.

Today Kennedy went to Art in the Park with Sofia.  We signed her up last minute so she can hang out with her BFF on Tuesday mornings for the next few weeks.  The class was full but the park district thankfully made an exception and got her in.  Now K can get out of the house at least one day a week and tag along with the Simonian family.  I’m grateful because I know she is safe with them.  We ensured she was well equipped this morning with masks, hand sanitizer, lip balm, hats and sunscreen in her little purse.

This week K will hit my cousin Alene’s indoor swimming pool.  When K was first diagnosed, we were banned from swimming ANYWHERE for 2+ years but the rules are getting more lenient based on her progress.  Since the pool is private, barely used and has housed no leaky children in years, we got the shaky thumbs up from the overprotective Dr. Manera.  Public pools, lake water and the ocean are still off limits and will remain that way.  Kennedy is so excited to swim anywhere and I’m praying we aren’t overdoing anything.  I just want her to feel like a normal kid and swimming is one of her favorite things to do so we’re giving it a try.  Baby steps.

Days 120 - 124

It’s been a busy few days.  We played with the neighbors all weekend, had play dates, piano lessons, went to Maddox’s baseball games, and celebrated dad’s birthday last night.  For the most part, we are keeping up with “normal” life but we’re all paying the toll one way or another.  We should slow down but we haven’t missed a beat.  When Kennedy acts normal, we forget she has cancer and that her body is undergoing pure chemical hell.  Every so often she is reminded with nausea, body pain and extreme fatigue – she could barely stay up for dad’s birthday last night.  For us as parents, we also forget what we are going through emotionally until we are so tired, anxious or depressed we can barely function.  We act normal and for the most part feel normal until we hit a wall.  Tonight I’m at a wall.

It’s hard to keep up with the blog, work and life in general.  No one would guess it since we haven’t dropped a single ball…yet...but I wish we could.  Life doesn’t stop for illness, in fact it moves faster than ever.  I hope we can keep up.

Off to pack for Kennedy’s admit tomorrow.  

Days 117 - 119

Thank goodness the steroid pulse is over.  It wasn’t as disgusting as the last one but could have been had we not been prepared.   Kennedy did have some back and leg pain but it was mostly alleviated with Tylenol/Codeine and Aspirin - no morphine needed.  Dad took K to clinic yesterday for another chemo dose of Vincristine.  Post pokey and clinic, they went to Rainforest Café and Build-A-Bear where Kennedy added a mermaid cat to her collection.  She did well and her counts were in the 7,000’s due to the steroid.  It’s kind of a fake ANC count but I’ll take it.  When she got home she crashed for 2 hours and missed her piano lesson with Kaitlyn.

Last night she was nauseated and this morning wasn't feeling well either.  I can’t wait until this Viscristine/Steroid mix is out of her system.  Her intense appetite has already subsided and she's been sleeping a lot.  She has moved back into our room this week and has somewhat taken over (when we can watch TV, when to turn off the bathroom light, how long and loud we can talk, etc).  I'm  hoping she'll be back in her bed soon.  

We are planning on enjoying the weekend at home.  Next week is a hospital admit…only 2 more to go and then maintenance!

Days 113 – 116

Overall we had a great weekend and Kennedy handled the steroid well…until this morning.  We had a 6am wakeup call of back pain, we gave her an ice pack some Tylenol and she went back to bed.  When she woke up again at 8am, the pain was still bad so we called the doctor to determine if we could give her aspirin based on her last platelet count.  Luckily we got the go ahead which saved us/her from trying morphine.  I stayed home to make sure all was okay and we had a good day lying in bed.  We also went outside for a while and I read her a book on the trampoline and after we stared at the trees and clouds and just chatted.  It was a great mommy-daughter day.

This weekend we were on the go.  We did some shopping, hosted and attended play-dates, had dinners with friends and even made it out on the boat.  I must admit boating is a lot more stressful these days.  Not only do we need to make sure we have the right food and supplies with us but we also need to plan out the meds and timing.  We haven’t trailered our boat in years so pulling it out of the water at nearly 11pm was a bit of challenge.  Yes, I said it….11pm.  We got out on the water at 3pm and Kennedy was having such a good time, she wanted to go eat at our restaurant on the chain for dinner and when all was said and done, 11pm.  

We stopped by our old marina where our trailer was last year.  The new owners built a deck and screened sunroom, it looked amazing.  It was sad knowing we wouldn’t be spending our summers there anymore.  We also saw our neighbors Dave and Janie.  Dave finally retired last year and was diagnosed with liver cancer this year.  It was sad to see both him and Kennedy together with their bald heads and distended tummies (although Dave has always been bald).  They both had the infamous look of cancer.  It’s odd how cancer patients have a similar look.  I’m not sure if it’s the disease or the treatment that makes it that way.  Anyway, it was sad thinking back to last summer compared to the beginning of summer 2012.

Kennedy received her Make-A-Wish folder in the mail today.  It is something we are all looking forward to when we near the end of her treatment.  Maintenance is less than 2 months away and then only 2 years to go until she’s free of the port.  I see a light at the end of the tunnel and although it’s still a long ways a way, it’s sooner every day. 

PS...I know I owe some thank you cards for gifts and K's birthday...I promise, they are coming soon.

Day 111 & 112

Pre-k end of year picnic

Thursday morning we had clinic at 8:15 am and it was also the first day of the steroid pulse.  All was going well, we got up early, gave K her meds and almost made it to clinic on time.  We were stuck in a bit of traffic and about 5 minutes away, K threw up from the steroid in the car.  Thankfully she kept it down long enough (40 minutes) that we didn’t have to give it to her again.  I went in to clinic with K and dad went to go clean his car.  K’s counts were good (790) so they gave her the Vincristine.  Kennedy didn’t even flinch when they accessed her port.

Post clinic K had a playdate with Emily and then went to her farewell preschool picnic at night.

Holding Daddy's hand while he
gets a pokey

Today we hosted our first blood drive and it went great.  K went to work with me in the morning and finally got to see dad get his pokey.  Friends and family from all over came which was a humbling experience.  People who swore they would never get a pokey did anyway for K.  All together, 54 pints of blood were collected between 11am – 6pm.  Next blood drive is on Friday, June 15 from 11am - 6pm.

I got home from Vegas late on Wednesday night and am happy to be home.  I had a tough time being “on” in Vegas.  The convention is a big networking event and I could barely function, I just wasn’t mentally there but it was still nice to get a break.  Dad did great when I was gone, working with both kids on homework and getting them to bed on time. 

Overall this week has been good.  We may try and take K on the boat this weekend depending on how she feels.  We’ll see how it goes – right now it seems a bit overwhelming.

Blood Drive Info.

So as I'm getting ready to leave for a few days, I remembered that I never posted the blood drive information for Kennedy. The first one is this Friday at Harlem Irving Plaza (May 25) from 11am - 6pm. There is another one on June 15 from 11am - 6pm also at the HIP. To sign up online, visit www.redcrossblood.org (use coded 0406248) and if the code doesn't work, use zip code 60067. You can also email Christina to set up an appointment at HIPchic@harlemirving.com.